||[Jan. 1st, 2010|05:57 am]
I feel like making an entirely new journal.
I feel this way because I always change my journal whenever I feel I'm going to change my life.
Looking back at old entries from this journal alone is disappointing. I lost weight at the beginning and I said it should go well because I had a partner to lose weight with.
That partner became a total bitch and then I stopped being motivated.
Full time at school has been another reason I don't work out and eat shitty.
But I shouldn't let retarded shit get in the way of my goals.
I BADLY want to lose weight. For 6 years now, I've wanted this obtainable goal but I've just been lazy and it's been out of my reach due to the circumstances I give myself.
Being awake right now certainly doesn't help the fact. But I don't know...maybe I'll get some sleep...maybe I'll start cleaning. I just don't want to waste the day by sleeping in...and then I don't want to get tired from lack of sleep and give up on cleaning.
I'm just going to make a list right now. Stuff to do before Winter Break has ended.
-beat Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days
-finish the Twilight Saga
-finish Dexter Series
-workout and diet everyday
-have an organized, clean room
-write a short story and/or script
I'm just going to add more to it later if necessary.
I owe so much money coming up. I don't know what to do about that $255 ticket. I want to call after the weekend is over and ask about a monthly installment plan. Hopefully they'll let me.
One year ago today I got a call telling me my best friend killed herself. It was the most heart breaking thing I've ever experienced in my life. I still think about her at least once everyday and how she was the bestest friend I ever had. But she had to move away and meet a bunch of good-for-nothin's... I sent her mom a card in the mail and she e-mailed me saying we've got to stay strong. Allison, my bifff...Blah, miss her <3
It's 6...I don't feel tired but I feel I should get some rest, wake up and clean...workout...read/play games. I'll try to get some writing in there, too..