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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2010|08:02 pm]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[Current Music |Circa Survive - The Longest Mile | Powered by Last.fm]

I haven't updated in a while. Of course, right after an entry about wanting to post more. This is me and my repetitive cycle. Honestly, I don't know where to start so I'm just going to jump right in.
ISSE Show: Bore-fest. I did not enjoy it. I guess maybe it's 'cause I pretty much don't give a fuck about hair right now. I was broke and it was basically a place to blow money. I stayed with Regina and we rented movies one night and then went to the movies the next. Quite fun. I walked around Hollywood Blvd. by myself and waited outside of a Whole Foods in hopes that Eli Roth would go grocery shopping. No luck, though.

Facials class came and went. I feel short-changed. I really like esthetics and am totally interested in learning makeup techniques but we were only taught things we need to learn to pass our State Board exam. I need to sign up for some advanced classes after I get my license to really be able to make that my ideal career goal. Also, everyone should wear sunblock everyday all day.

Now I'm in Chemicals class. Learning about chemical straightening and bleaching and color correction. Buh. I am interested in this but it's just tedious work. Applying shaving cream to my mannequin and going through all of the steps. I want to bug my teacher about color correcting my hair. I have the absolute worst hair right now. My ashy blonde roots are about 2 inches long and contrasting against the black it looks awful. I am going to try and remove as much black as possible and maybe go like a plum-purple. Not "in your face" purple, more natural than flashy.

I don't think anyone realizes exactly what kind of environment my school is. No one ever asks me. They just ask, "How is school? What are you learning?" and after that is answered, "Oh, when are you graduating?"
"I have no idea when I'm graduating."
"What? How can you not know!?"
I need 1600 hours to graduate. I need to have completed a certain number of hours and operations that are required. Each day I try to earn hours in specific subjects. Each day, the hair style or the activity I do is for a reason. For example, I need to do 200 Wet Sets. Right now I only have about 60-80. I forget. So it all depends on when I complete my time ticket and how many hours I miss and how many days I'm absent and so on and so forth...
To explain my school is complicated and it wouldn't matter to anyone anyways.
Fact is: it's hard and I feel like I will be there forever.

I'm still attending my Film class every Monday. I dig it, I keep ignoring assignments. I claim to want to be a director and yet I can't do an essay once a week. I fear for the future of this dream. I'm signing up for Film classes at SF City College...hopefully I can start going in the fall without conflicting with my Cosmo hours. 8 a.m.- 4:30 p.m. everyday. It's hard to fit in other things...

Last night I went to a bar.
Oh yeah, I turned 21.
Not too exciting. Been places but I've only been ID'ed a few times.
The bar tender lastnight said I looked like I was in my late 20s, early 30s. So depressing!
Anyhoo, I want to continue writing my story but of course, lacking motivation.
I will update more later. Hopefully.
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Bum bum bee dum [Jan. 28th, 2010|01:31 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

Okay, first of all...these new LJ ads are out of control...what the hell?
Second of all, I'm mad at myself for not writing as much as I should be.
I've been going to school since the 19th...really hectic.
Finally did some tweezing and waxing the other day...pretty awesome.
I really want to be an expert at waxing and facials and stuff but we only do facials on Monday  and Tuesday. Nails on Wednesday...and we take clients Thursday, Friday.
On Monday we took a field trip to a State Board meeting...I wasn't really sure what it was at first...it was like a mini trial for these manicurists who had their licenses taken away and they were trying to get them back. They both used the same Vietnamese translator and it was just all bad...
After that I went to a different nearby community college to go to my Intro to Film class. Really enjoyed it...but on top of my 8-4:30 day...that class is from 6:10-9:45...bleh. But I NEED to take it...if I claim film is my passion I better fuckin' start. I'm aging constantly.
I haven't written in the little story I was hoping to make billions on. Partly because everyone I tell to read it doesn't seem too excited about it...and I even tried to submit it to a writing community or deviantART but the moderator hasn't even checked it yet and it's been like 2 weeks.
Woe is me.
Friday we're driving down to L.A. for the ISSE show. Beauty convention...
Not really looking forward to the convention...more like planning to going to Whole Foods and seeing if Eli Roth is grocery shopping or something..
Anyway, maybe I'll have something excited to talk about then.
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Working on my resolutions. [Jan. 7th, 2010|12:40 am]
[Current Mood |frustratedfrustrated]
[Current Music |The Smiths - London | Powered by Last.fm]

Working out everyday, trying to eat right.
I just finished the first chapter in whatever the hell it is I'm writing.
If anyone wants to read it let me know.
You need a password to access it

Gimme your feedback.
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Resolutions [Jan. 1st, 2010|05:57 am]
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[Current Music |Mew - White Lips Kissed | Powered by Last.fm]

I feel like making an entirely new journal.
I feel this way because I always change my journal whenever I feel I'm going to change my life.
Looking back at old entries from this journal alone is disappointing. I lost weight at the beginning and I said it should go well because I had a partner to lose weight with.
That partner became a total bitch and then I stopped being motivated.
Full time at school has been another reason I don't work out and eat shitty.
But I shouldn't let retarded shit get in the way of my goals.
I BADLY want to lose weight. For 6 years now, I've wanted this obtainable goal but I've just been lazy and it's been out of my reach due to the circumstances I give myself.

Being awake right now certainly doesn't help the fact. But I don't know...maybe I'll get some sleep...maybe I'll start cleaning. I just don't want to waste the day by sleeping in...and then I don't want to get tired from lack of sleep and give up on cleaning.

I'm just going to make a list right now. Stuff to do before Winter Break has ended.

-beat Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days
-finish the Twilight Saga
-finish Dexter Series
-workout and diet everyday
-have an organized, clean room
-write a short story and/or script

I'm just going to add more to it later if necessary.
I owe so much money coming up. I don't know what to do about that $255 ticket. I want to call after the weekend is over and ask about a monthly installment plan. Hopefully they'll let me.

One year ago today I got a call telling me my best friend killed herself. It was the most heart breaking thing I've ever experienced in my life. I still think about her at least once everyday and how she was the bestest friend I ever had. But she had to move away and meet a bunch of good-for-nothin's... I sent her mom a card in the mail and she e-mailed me saying we've got to stay strong. Allison, my bifff...Blah, miss her <3

It's 6...I don't feel tired but I feel I should get some rest, wake up and clean...workout...read/play games. I'll try to get some writing in there, too..
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